What do you do when your life is completely turned upside down, thrown you a curveball and just plain scared you? How do you cope when you can’t see the end? Ambiguity sucks! Uncertainty Sucks! And yet, we can’t escape either one…I know I can’t! So what do you do?
About 6 months ago, I learned that I was going to be laid off at the end of 2014 due to budget cuts and restructuring…blah…blah…blah! I was losing my job! Fast forward to 12-3-14, my beautiful daughter was born after a crazy and emotional few days in the hospital. (that’s a whole other blog entry) Oh, by the way, she wasn’t due until the end of the month! Uncertainty, ambiguity and surprises!!!
I’ve been waiting to write this post because frankly, I wasn’t ready. I’m still not sure if I’m ready! The emotional roller coaster of the last 6 months have ranged from total BLISS and JOY while holding my little angel, Isabelle Noel to outright CONFUSION, FEAR, ANGER and SADNESS! I’ve covered the emotional gamut…and that brings me to the present. What do I do, How do I pick up the pieces???
How am I doing? Probably as good as you can expect…maybe, just maybe, a little better than just okay! When this whole thing started, I saw myself staring down this tunnel knowing that at the end of the tunnel…there would be a light. I knew it, I just couldn’t see it! Now, I’m not the type of person that thrives in uncertainty. At least, I don’t think I am. I’m the type of person that likes to put the pieces of his life into neat little boxes. I have a calendar that is neatly organized and I create to-do lists and I check things off that list. That makes me feel good. AMBIGUITY AND UNCERTAINTY on a scale this large…doesn’t make me feel good! I can’t remember the last time I didn’t have a job and with a baby on the way my wife and I were pretty worried…we still are a little. But you know what…I’m okay. We’re okay. Really and truly…I’m okay! Even though all the pieces haven’t fallen back into place yet, I know that they will. Even though I don’t have all the answers yet, I know the path will become clearer as I march onward! I’m in a good place. My connection to my higher self and to my light and my own inner power have truly been my guide through this process. My meditations and time spent quietly in the recesses of my heart have taught me that sometimes life throws you a curveball to help test your resolve, to test how strongly you believe in yourself. I’m taking a chance, gambling on the first stages of a dream and it feels really AWESOME and really SCARY! Do I believe in myself? Yes, well kind of…it’s hard to really believe…but I do. I don’t know how this is going to work, I don’t know how it’s going to affect my family. Here’s what I know, my old job forced me to become someone and something I didn’t like. It changed me! I lost contact with the things that mattered to me in my professional world and I knew I was slipping and it was affecting my home life. Thankfully my trust and faith that I always end up where I’m supposed to be is helping me through this time. I’m slowly clawing my way back to the things that matter to me professionally. I’m finding ways to reconnect with my passions and ultimately be a better person. It’s AWESOME and SCARY! Will it work? I hope so but I DON’T HAVE CERTAINTY, I ONLY HAVE AMBIGUITY! And…and pay attention, this is important. I have complete and total faith that I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be right now, right here. I’m not delusional…I’m connected. We all are, we just have to listen. I know and trust that things always work out for me and that faith helps keep me focused, positive and engaged in this process. Maybe, just maybe I can learn to embrace AMBIGUITY AND UNCERTAINTY.
It’s not easy to take a chance and gamble on yourself! I don’t think it’s going to be simple and I don’t know if I would have had the courage to do this if life hadn’t forced me into it! But I’m here and I’m going to stay connected to my light, let that guide me and I know everything will work out!
Greetings loved ones,
It has been quite some time since Mare ’Sol has opened himself up to conscious communication with us! As he has stated, life has been rather interesting for him and his family lately! We wish to share with you that what Mare sol is experiencing is in many ways symbolic of the change that you might be feeling. The world and things you once knew as normal are being stripped away! The old skin must be shed so that a new world can be born! You are alive at a very exciting time! Maresol is a part of this transformation process and so are you! Each of you are a part of this grand transition that is occurring on your plane of existence at this time. It’s confusing, downright and utterly confusing! But you’re not alone! You may feel isolated, alone and scared but know that you are never alone! We are always here willing to offer our love and support as you navigate these new waters! Maresol had to stop and open himself up to this healing and supportive energy! For a time, he stopped sitting in his light and connecting with us! We are glad he’s remember the importance of sitting in the quiet of his heart and connecting to his light! We’d ask you, have you lost track of your quiet time? Do you still find time to sit with your heart, to rest in your light? You see, this is critically important to all beings at this time…on all planes of existence! What we ask of you is simple, sit in quiet meditation and breathe the light of creation and change into your heart! This light will support and carry you through these changing times and you’ll begin to see and experience things in a new way! Life will literally be transformed for you! Yes, this simple act of breathing your light, and the light of creation will help support your transformation.
We wish to join with you in this transition and ask you to open your hearts to us and to call us in for help! Simply ask and trust that we are there! The more you connect with us, the more you’ll come to know and feel our presence, our love and support!
The Divine White Brotherhood!